This afternoon I called Blue Fairy. It has been about 4 months since I spoke with her as a friend and I asked her - are we still friends.
Her answer while disappointing was not surprising, NO! She had a few excuses and such but mostly I understood why she does not have many friends. She doesnt culture friendship, that is unless there is a lot going her way then she cant abide by it.
I bear her no grudges for being honest about the friendship, probably never had much of a chance anyway. Really wot kind of friendship continues to exist because you have one dominant person, constantly and the other agreeing because she knows that the other will not tolerate a disagreement.
I must say that in the last few months I dared to disagree and I could see that Blue Fairy was unhappy with the answer.
AND so that this is not all one sided I have to admit that once I no longer officially worked for the council I had no problems bagging it. This part while joined in enthusiastically and fuelled sometimes by Blue Fairy was very wrong and quite destructive for the friendship because I often disagreed with Blue Fairy on a matter. She seemed to take it on the chin, maybe she didnt!
It is a shame for a friendship to end like this, it is a shame for any friendship to end.